Querimonious

Adj. -complaining, querulous, apt to complain

R-E-S-P-E-C-T, find out what it means to me
All I'm asking for, is a little Respect...

Ok, prepare oneself, this blog might get a bit rantish...

This past year, as a Junior, I've been working to really establish myself on campus as a leader and someone who makes a difference. I'm not doing this for recognition or for awards. In fact, the reason I'm doing it, is because I care about my school, my fellow students, and the future students to come here. But it just seems like everything I try to do is stopped before I even get a chance. Granted on this campus, there are so many brilliant, wonderful, caring students that there is an endless supply of people willing to step up and do things. But it bothers me that I'm never given an opportunity. Perhaps, that's my fault for not stepping up and demanding more opportunities. In fact that's very true.. I'm not stepping up enough. It just seems like it should be so easy, a completely dedicated, willing, and available student wanting to help out with things on campus. Shouldn't faculty, staff, and the school be throwing opportunities at me?

I feel so unprepared for real life. I have nothing to talk about in interviews, no real accomplishments to discuss. When asked to furnish a resume, whereas some have trouble keeping it to a page, I have problem lengthening it to a page, some creative additions results :)

All i want is a project of my very own, that I can see from start to finish, that when I leave campus I can cite as my "crowning accomplishment" so to speak. I DON'T want people throwing me bones, so to speak, I don't want pity or other's leftovers. I just want to be great at something tangible, something of value. I want to make a difference and know it.

Oh well, guess that's it for the rant... I'll post again with something more positive and fun :) it'll make both of us feel better I'm sure...

Always,
K